Capricorn Dec 22 - Jan 19 First one thing and then the other -- what are you going to do or say next? Remember, it's important that you're consistent and true to something. I've been here before. I've done this before. I've heard this before. I've let this happen before.
My life has constantly been this continuous cylce. I'm thrown into the same situation over and over again. I'm fucking sick of it. First there's the fun. The partying, drinking, smoking, fucking, talking, waking up and doing it all over again.(Am I sick for missing that?)
Then the misery comes. That same old repetition. Getting too messed up too often. Losing friends, gaining friends. Regret. Sick. Loss of self respect. No boundries. No control. Time is gone. Always looking for another fix. Meeting the worst sides of people. Leaving yourself behind.
No job.... No car.... No food......No home.
Then you're fucked. You can't get out the same way you came in.
Then you change. You change to climb out of that pit. But you only change your actions, NOT YOURSELF. You go for the better in life. Home....Car.... Job....Time....
But at the same time you still lose. I lose my friends and my mind. When you're fucked up all the time, you surround yourself with people who are fucked up all the time. Mainly to make yourself feel better. Which agreed, I DID.
But FUCK, this time was different. This time I surrounded myself with people I got to know, and who I actually let get to know me.
Now question, WHY am I still losing? | 
